i know what i have to do now, i just have to find the strength to do it

please dont ever let my patrents fine this i have made there lives hard enough already

im so sorry jamie i love u so much

Everything has been so hard latly, with moving to the new aparmtnet, getting away from school, and knowing that I am going to have to get a job ASAP b/c my parents are going to cut my ass off when they find out. Luckily I can use Jaime's car to go the the Quarter and look for work, b/c I'm sure as shit not going to find it in Metarie. I love Jaime so much she is the best.

I got to go out for Halloween on tues. Zack was bartending and I saw mark but he looked super pissed off so I didn't get to say hi to him. I dressed up at a devil, but like the kids devil costume with the red footie pajamas and everything, lol. Soembody told me that the super hot goth chick from The Craft was there but I didn't see her :(

Ok, so Lux told me I should post more. I'm workin on it.Fofff.

Ok, some of u suggested nola.com, I looked and I founhd a place for only 650! Unfortunately it is in Metarie, which means I won't be able to come out as much. But at least I can move out of the dorms.

usually life is totally fine and I'm not upset about anything but I get these out of the blue urges to hurt myself. It's not like a passing whim, it's this all consuming need. I've had it go on for litrally 2 or 3 days, now I've gotten to where I just give in before it drives me too crazy. I was just wondering if anyone else ever had this happen and what they did about it.

neway I didn't show up 4 class yesterday, and I provably wont tomorrow either. It is shit b/c I'm going to have to find an aparment now, hopefully their is something for under 1000, rent is so f'n ridiculas these days.

damn damn damn.

I just realized that none of u kno who I am, lol. This is Brandon from Missisippi. Add me back.

Well this week has sucked 4 me, I have only been back 4 a month and I am already flunking out of Loyola, wtf. This sucks. I relly cannot afford to have my parents stop helping me with college, i can't afford it on my own. This is bullshit. Neway here is a picure that Jamie sent me to cheer me up, hope u like it.

Wow, what a f'ed up year. It's really cool to be back in NOLA. I went out on Sunday and nothing's changed, lol. It was really good to see everybody again, especially Huggy, haha I missed that fucker. I got to hang out with Luxe, I'm glasd she didn't move away like she's been threatening to for years.

Anyway I finally have an LJ now so I can keep up with all you guys, add me back damnit.